frickin alone

y'know what i feel right now? lonely. i don't know why but it's so weird that i always feel so alone. maybe it's because the phrase "we came here alone, and we leave this world alone". yeah i know it's a total bullshit for some of you. but let me tell you this, i think this is so true. see, everyone said that i'm "forever alone" or "anti-social". and i kinda believe that i am. no one talks to me when i feel down, no one accompanies me in holidays, no one calls me, no one miss me. and don't say that you guys miss me. because you know what, i don't believe easily to human anymore. i can't even think who i trust anymore. people said that they miss me, like me, love me, etc, but in real life they don't contact me except when they need something, well not everyone exactly, but obviously many people do that. they say they miss me, but they don't call or text me. maybe you guys feel the same way as me, but i know that you have another close friends. do you know that 80% of my time a day i spent alone? i've got some friends in school, but i can't say that they're my "other" close friends. you know what, i hate when my close friends have boyfriends. it makes them forget me, and leave me, and spent more time with their boyfriends. i don't care of you say that i'm so selfish, because sometimes i can't hide my feeling inside. and today's such a bad day for me, because i feel so alone and all my friends are so busy and can't spent some of their time for me. don't judge me bad because of what i write, because i know many people feel this too. i just don't want to have things left unsaid.